Better Without: The Unraveling of My Safety Net. Is the third book in a four part autobiographical poetry series written from 2008 Ð 2015. Part three covers my daily struggle with trying to live a normal life behind my mask; where the darkness extinguished my will to live. Similar to part one ÔThe Madness: And My Decent Into ItÕ the content was intended to be my suicide note. I intended on finally leaving this world on November 26th 2014; I am still trying to understand why on November 20th I was robbed of finally having a quite mind. Still lost within the darkness each day is worse than the last. I shouldnÕt even be writing this, I should be free. I believe when my day comes it will be by my own hands,I hope the contents of these four books and any that may follow will provide my children some comfort and lesson the sadness they may feel as a result of my decision. This is the last book in the series where the content is unedited and arranged in the exact order as my intended suicide note.