The incognito incarnation of gTŽrtšn Aro YeshŽ returns to Nepal having tried to fulfill the predictions of KyabjŽ DŸdÕjom Rinpoche: 3 years in the 1970sÕ Art School scene attempting to live as a ngakpa. He has mixed success. He visits Samye Ling in Scotland and spends intimate time with the 16th Gyalwa Karmapa - but also navigates strange encounters. He presents these errant events to DŸdÕjom Rinpoche: and is surpised to learn that he has acquitted himself without blame. He receives Dzogchen transmssions - some of which are recounted here in detail. He is surprisingly advised never to abandon Blues, or divide Vajrayana from the Western Arts - as he works to establish the ngakÕphang tradition in the West and, somehow, find a sangyum - an ideal marital partner and practice consort. Foreword by His Eminence TrŸlku Ogyen DršÕdrŸl Thrin-lŽ Kunkyab Rinpoche - gTŽrtšn Drukdra and Khar-trŸl Wangchuk RigÕdzin Rinpoche.