Why is Audrey James fearful? Why now? Is it because she is getting a divorce? Moving to a run-down house? Possibly succumbing to the stress of her job at the Santa Monica DAÕs office? Or is it just something she ate? Simply because her mother has been in the loony bin for years doesnÕt necessarily make it a fait accompli that she will end up there, too. At thirty-five, she figures she has held it together long enough, figures she has missed the boat to schizophrenia. Only now there are a few questions like, what happened to the guy who taped her drywall? Was one of her friends involved? Her voyage of self-discovery coincides with her wade through the lies and half-truths woven for self-protection or in self-interest by her friends and acquaintances. When she begins to see guilt and innocence in shades of gray, she must finally make a conscious decision to trust. That decision allows her to be at peace with both the mystery and with her own mind.