ÒYou may think somethingÕs gone just because you canÕt see it anymore but itÕs still there, lurking. Waiting.
Now here I am, after dinner, dashing to the scales again as the thing inside of me is waking up after a long sleep. ItÕs not weakened by its five-year absence Ð itÕs revived, revitalised, stronger than ever.Ó
When AprilÕs sister commits suicide she copes with it the only way she feels she can: by falling back into an unhealthy relationship with food.
The eating disorder takes over her life, consuming her to the point where she can no longer remember who she used to be.
In her denial, April canÕt see that she is doing anything wrong. She feels she is completely in control of things, when really the illness is in control of her.